My Greatest Weakness

My biggest strength is my greatest weakness

4-5 days a week, I spend my day completing an assessment on people. I note areas of impairment, abnormality or concern. I do this to assist in proper diagnosis and treatment for the person sitting across from me. The doctor takes my assessment and finds the best way to help the person reach optimal health. 

Being a nurse, I notice features of people.  I evaluate concerns, difficulties, the environment and each situation I encounter.  I run countless thoughts through my mind in hopes to reach a solution or favorable outcome.  My mind never stops.

My biggest strength is my greatest weakness

In my younger years, I played basketball.  I assessed constantly.  I evaluated the game, the defense tactics and the plays our team conducted.  My position was point guard; therefore, I called the shots (no pun intended) during the game.  I ran countless thoughts through my mind in hopes to choose the right play to win the game.

My biggest strength is my greatest weakness

As a parent and wife, I assess constantly.  I evaluate our schedules, circumstances and difficulties.  I plan meals daily according to the jammed packed day.  I run countless thoughts through my mind in hopes to choose correctly in discipline, love and care for my loved ones.  I work to engage enough in their lives to reveal the love I hold for each of them.

The above scenarios exhibit my biggest strength: I am observant toward others, the environment and situations requiring attention.  I assess life constantly.  In comes my greatest weakness.  I constantly evaluate myself, situations I face and the environment surrounding me.  The assessment creates a list of flaws and failures deeming myself unworthy.  In order to feel worthy, I run countless ideas through my mind in hopes to find one that will fix my problem or cover up my issue.

I never feel okay in my own skin.  Hence, my history with an eating disorder, OCD and anxiety.  Battling these have been quite difficult over the years.  I am happy to report the freedom from the first two which has come within the past 10 years.  The last, I still struggle.  The daily assessment feeds my anxiety.  I wake up each day fighting for worthiness in this world.  When I deem myself short of such in each situation, anxiety roars its ugly head. . .

The difference between me now and me 10 years ago?  I no longer run to ED for comfort or proof I am worthy.  I no longer allow compulsive behaviors to bring reassurance to my moment.  I have found Hope in my days.  I have found Truth to bring my roller coaster emotions to reality.  I have found Wisdom provided directly from my Creator.  The One who deemed me worthy.  The One who found purpose for me to come into this world.  The One who took me in His hands, created every fiber of my body and said, “Yes, this is it, this is who I want to carry out my plan.”  He created me.  He knows every one of my moments.  He provides a solution every time.

My Creator takes my assessment and perfects it.  He speaks into the marred image that my earthly vision observes.  He uses every failure for good as I hand it over to Him.  He reminds me of the beauty within.  He is helping me with my anxiety as I hand over my greatest weakness.  He takes that and turns it into my biggest strength.  He uses me to help others, pray for others and see a moment that another needs a smile or someone to listen.  He eases my anxiety by using me daily.

The same goes for you.  I am not special or set apart in any way.  You were created by God for a purpose.  He looked at you and said, “Yes, this is it, this is who I want to carry out my plan.”  Come to Him.  He will turn your greatest weakness into your biggest strength.  Seek His Truth for your day.  Bring your roller coaster emotions to the Cross.  Daily, live to serve Him and you will see amazing things happen.  

Live life. . .One Day at a time! 

Sheree Craig