Humble: having a feeling of insignificance, inferiority, subservience
(adj.); to destroy the independence, power or will of (verb)!
There should be a class before surgery to teach
humility. Humility weaves into every
aspect of surgery. Prior to surgery, all
routine medications/supplements and lifestyle choices stripped away. During surgery, no control exists and crazy things
occur to the body. Post-surgery, the basic
skills in life cannot be attained without assistance from others (not even
going to the restroom).
I faced such humility the moment the surgeon
presented the choice: continue living as
such until you no longer can use the right hip, OR, have a total hip
replacement now. The hip replacement
remained inevitable; it was a matter of when.
I chose surgery now due to life already being hindered by less than 100%
use of right hip. That moment of
decision broke me. Fear struck every
fiber in my body.
Humility cannot be found in my vocabulary. With humility in the way, I could not
survive. I chose years ago to depend on
me to get things done, survive this world and figure out every detail of a
situation. I did not want to burden
another or rely on another for survival.
I kept to myself and assured that I did not ‘need’ anyone in this
world.
Therefore, the moment I realized I would be
helpless, relying on others to get through and needing support; I broke. How can I get through without being able to
get everything on my to do list done?
How can I ask another to care for me when they are busy themselves? How can I give total control over to some
surgeon I just met? What does life look
like without going nonstop to fix everything?
How can I give up my routine?
The overwhelming anxiety took lots of prayers, quiet
time with God and venting to my husband.
By the time surgery arrived, God already began the process of picking up
the pieces and rebuilding a stronger Sheree.
He began with humility. He
revealed the pedestal I stood on in life.
He knocked the pedestal out from beneath. The ‘things’ in this world I feared incapable
of completing post-surgery were the very things that kept me from truly loving
the most important people in life. He
revealed the effort put forth to be “perfect” shattered my spirit, leaving me
empty and exhausted. He revealed the
distance placed between Him and I due to fear of failure in this world.
Though a storm brewed ahead, I knew full well that
it packed a mighty purpose in my story.
God’s plans reveal a mighty purpose for you and me. In this storm, I will take time to discover
how to love from my heart and not my hands.
The works provided to my family cannot reveal the love I feel in my
heart. I love them, cherish their
presence and long for time spent making memories; yet, I get caught up in doing
‘things’ for them and expecting appreciation in return. I feel they need me only to fulfill the works
done around the home. Lie #1 the devil
uses to fill me with fear and place a wedge between my heart and the Cross.
In this storm, I will take time to discover how to
change the goal from perfectionism to purpose.
Daily, God holds a purpose for you and me. Perfection gets in the way of purpose. I feel I need to be perfect to be accepted
and loved. Lie #2 the devil uses to fill
me with condemnation/shame and place a wedge between my heart and the Cross.
In this storm, I will take time to discover the
steps required to strengthen my relationship and reliance on God rather than
this world. God desires to walk
alongside you and I daily. God
sacrificed His Only Son to have a relationship with you and me. He loves me!
He loves you! I feel I got
this! I feel that God has bigger
problems to fix. God has others to worry
about. My little day to day concerns are
stupid. My mountains to climb seem like a
minor hill to God. Lie #3 the devil uses
to fill me with fear and place a wedge between my heart and the Cross.
Today, I pray for God to send His Holy Spirit and
overpower the lies lingering in my thoughts.
Today, God will begin to erase the lies remaining in the pages of my
story and begin writing Truth. Today, God will set me free from me! Today, I run to the cross in humility,
broken, ready to be put back together in His Timing.
Join me in prayer today. . .
9 “This,
then, is how you should pray:
“‘Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name,
10 your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us today our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13 And lead us not into temptation,[a]
but deliver us from the evil one.[b]’ Matthew 6:9-13
hallowed be your name,
10 your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven.
11 Give us today our daily bread.
12 And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors.
13 And lead us not into temptation,[a]
but deliver us from the evil one.[b]’ Matthew 6:9-13
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. Isaiah 55:8-11
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it. Isaiah 55:8-11
Live life. . .One Day at a
time!
Sheree Craig
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