One Day at a Time: Hindrance to an Intimate Relationship?

God is good ALL the time. . .ALL the time God is good!

I live in unpredictable on a daily basis. This can drive an individual - craving routine, comfortable with schedules and overly obsessive with placement of items - batty. Good thing I don’t suffer with any of the listed concerns, right (sarcasm emphasized)?

Living in the moment remains a weakness in my life. I am not where I used to be! I have more steps to go on this journey seeking strength and maturity. Let’s set a scene years ago to understand the past bondage: I arose every morning from the same side lying position, took exact steps to restroom, put in contacts, walked the exact path to the kitchen, used the same light switch (which must be in the correct position), grabbed the same coffee mug and sat down for a specific amount of time on the computer prior to getting kids up. The day continued based on schedule prepared the night prior. Everything done in a timely manner and the clock became the dictator. Failure to accomplish schedule in time sent me straight to panic mode. Once the day came to an end, everyone tucked in bed, I ventured around the house to assure every single item sat in its place correctly (seriously, no joke). Then, I could rest at ease knowing all was well.

Life = bondage, misery, anxiety and constant failure. Perfection could never be reached; therefore, I ran around like a madwoman seeking such unattainable goals. Routine provided rest – Consistency provided comfort – Schedules provided success. Unbeknownst to me, all these emotions were temporary, false and blocking an intimate relationship with my Savior. All these emotions ruined relationships here on Earth. All the work put forth to feel ‘okay’ in this world built walls around my heart, keeping loved ones at bay.

Enough was enough. Brick by brick the walls crumbled as I began realizing who God created Sheree to be in this world. My Father holds no desire for His daughter to spend hours in worry, seek perfection in this world or be voted most liked by the world’s standards. Once Truth entered my mind, it began trickling down to my heart and my actions responded accordingly. Am I completely ‘off the hook’ from such actions described above? No. Does life bring in scenes filled with triggers? Yes. Chaos causes weakness, setting up prime opportunity for the devil to tempt me back into old patterns. Thankfully, my Father provides His Armor daily to protect from the evil schemes of the devil.

What is blocking you from an intimate relationship with your Savior? Take a stand today against such hindrance. Seek out prayer warriors. Read Truth daily. Place His Armor on every morning in preparation for the unpredictable day ahead. Walk confidently knowing God went ahead of you this day, paved the way and gathered all the tools needed to survive. He will provide those tools at the perfect time throughout the day when you invite Him into each moment. Will you invite Him?

Without Him, I would still be bound in condemnation of each imperfection. Without Him, I would seek Anorexia Nervosa to solve life’s concerns. Without Him, I would feel rejected, unloved and worthless. Thanks be to God Who sent His Son Jesus to die so I may live. This world is temporary, His gift to us is Eternal life in Heaven. Accept – Believe – Confess! Jesus is our Lord and Savior. Hallelujah! Praise be His Holy name!

Without Him, I would miss out on such joy as this. . .